Timing

Difficulties in life are meant to make you think and to appreciate all the things that you do have. To reevaluate your life, your purpose, or if anything, to teach you something.
I will admit to being a complete control freak who wants nothing more than to just make a difference in the world. It does not seem enough to have the heart or the drive. Nothing is falling into place and I'm wondering if this is how I am paying my dues or if I'm just not meant for it right now. The path is right? Just not right now? But if now, then when? What is it that I should be learning from now until whenever things decide to fall into place? What do I do? Its been three years going on four. I can only be patient for so long. I always seem to be waiting for something. If there was just one these in my life, that would definitely be it. And I'm not even sitting around waiting. I'm making back up plans for my back ups.
I don't give up hope because I trust that it will all work itself out. I hope the God has a bigger plan for me and that is why right now is not the right time. That I should just enjoy the time I do have.
I should just sit and just wait.